Words are so immortal, you can't know what’s in store
One word from someone’s all it takes to fall in love once
more
Radhika Mehrotra heaved a sigh of relief as she gazed at the
woman sitting on the other side of the
mirror. It was blissful to finally have some time with herself. She was
getting married in the next one hour and just about everybody in her humongous
family had felt compelled to come and individually dole out their ardent
blessings along with generous doses of unwanted family planning ‘gyaan’. She feverishly played with her earrings
as she tried to calm herself down.
Wedding in the next
one hour meant that she was now officially entitled to freak out with the
tension, she could indulge herself with some melodramatic emotional speeches,
create a complete nuisance of herself, stay glued to her mirror, demand that
just about everybody be at her beck and call, drool over her dress, crib about
the flowers, fret over the jewellery, scream for the make up and generally enjoy
dishing out nothing short of gigantic bridal tantrums. But surprisingly she
wasn't feeling like doing any of this— in fact, she wasn't really sure what she
was feeling right now.
As she gazed at the mirror, in that one moment she saw the
last three years of her life flash by. It had been a traumatizing three years
since her first husband had died. Back then, at 25 it had seemed as if her
whole world had come crashing down. People leave but memories their memories continue to live and these memories seemed to be the only companion
since three long years.
It was perhaps a year
back that she had met someone. Friends had introduced him to her as a handsome overqualified bachelor and now,
a year later, she, was introducing him to her friends as her fiancé.
It was difficult— extremely difficult to describe her fiancé.
And even more so to describe what she felt for him. Though he would never admit
it, she knew it had been a severe case of love at first sight for him. But with
her, though she definitely liked him, she wasn’t even sure if she was in love
and somewhere, she thought he knew that. As she fidgeted with her bangles, she
recollected so many things, she recalled her fiancé’s face when she had
accepted his proposal, recalled how happy her family had been with her
decision, recalled the words he had said to convey what she meant to him and
now each and every one of those words was weighing her down. Hardly any time
left for her wedding and she wasn't sure if she was ready for marriage. She
just couldn't bear to break her fiance's heart…..he was too nice to deserve
that.
So preoccupied was
she with her thoughts that she didn't even realise that she had started silently
crying. As she frantically tried to wipe the treacherous tears which attempted to
spoil her make up, her train of thoughts was interrupted by a soft beeping of
her phone.
She feverishly grabbed her phone and stared blankly at the
name shining softly on top of her Whatsapp list. The tears just wouldn't stop
falling and now she didn't even try to curb them.
Raghav
Are you ready?
Radhika (after a
pause, shakily)
Yea
Raghav
No you’re not.
Radhika (Now
speedily)
Of course I am. In fact I
was just seeing myself in the mirror.
Raghav
I don’t think you’re going
to be ready till you have seen my wedding gift. Open your dressing table
drawer.
Radhika (smiling ruefully)
Is it so small it fit into
a drawer? ;) Just joking
Raghav
I have nothing bigger than
my heart and too bad, I’ve already given it away :p
Smiling slightly now, she kept her phone aside and slowly
opened the drawer. It took her some time to realise that the only additional
object inside was the thinnest envelope she had ever seen, neatly stacked at
the right corner. She carefully removed it and sceptically eyed it. It
ridiculously reminded her of a telephone bill and she stupidly wondered if this
was Raghav's idea of romantically informing her how much they had chatted
online. After fingering it for a little while, she decided to give way to her
curiosity and opened it. There was a most beautiful off-white paper inside
completely crammed with Raghav's familiar messy scrawl. For the first time that
entire day she felt like laughing as she opened her first love letter.
To the woman I'm waiting
to call my wife,
Just to inform you— I've
NEVER written a love letter before, but then, I have never really been in love
before Radhika. Though I will never admit, you know I've loved you ever since I
saw you and though you will never admit, I know it might not be the same for
you.
30 minutes before our
wedding, there’s something I want to ask you and before you answer me, just
remember that I will always love you no matter what your answer is.
Is it really possible to
rekindle a fire?
To recreate a spark, to
nurse a new desire?
Is it really true that
the smile you wore last season
Can be worn yet again
but now for another reason?
Can someone make you
laugh every moment, every mile
At a time when you had
felt that you could not even smile?
Can someone slowly
become, such an important part
Of your life when, till
yesterday, someone else ruled your heart?
Does someone spoil you
so much that he treats you like a queen?
Do someone’s words mean
so much that you blush like a silly teen?
Do you reread those
messages I keep sending all while?
Do your fingers race the
keyboard, do you reply with a smile?
The blush that seems to
lately adorn your pretty cheek
Is it Lakme's secret, or
my compliment last week?
By nature I'm so calm,
it’s something I admire
But you spare one smile for
someone else, my heart is set afire
Has no one ever told
you, how pretty you look in green?
My heartbeat runs a
marathon, I feel like a silly teen.
Is it truly possible for
me to be a part
Not just of your surname
but also of your heart?
Today in our wedding you
will gently say “I do”
Tomorrow, day after,
ever, will you say I Love You?
Is it really possible
that your heart just wants to soar?
Does it finally believe
that it can fall in love once more?
Love can be so gentle
love can be so wild
Love makes you a woman, love
makes you a child
Love is so romantic,
love lifts me to the skies
I fall in love a million
times
When you look into my
eyes.
Radhika……if I am the
reason you can agree with even one of these lines…….marry me and I will never
let you regret it. I'm waiting for your reply Ms. Mehrotra
Yours always
Raghav
She didn't know
how many times she read that letter at that moment. She only knew she read it
till she no longer needed to as the words remained etched in her mind. Before
her tears could make a royal mess of the most precious paper in her life, she
hastily placed it back on the dressing table and grabbed her phone. Smiling widely at the screen she
replied back
There is no way you
can escape the marriage now Mr. Raghav Khanna. Be prepared to spoil me for the
rest of your life :*
P.S. Be on time
Special P.S. Now
that I know what a good poet you are, I expect this gift every anniversary ;)
Smiling to
herself, she placed the phone back and frantically gazed at the clock. Still
five minutes before she needed to leave for the venue. That could only mean
that she was still officially entitled to freak out with the tension,
she could still indulge herself with some melodramatic emotional speeches,
create a complete nuisance of herself upto the wedding, stay glued to her
mirror, demand that just about everybody be at her beck and call, drool over
her dress, crib about the flowers, fret over the jewellery, scream for the
make up and generally enjoy dishing out nothing short of gigantic bridal tantrum
and there was no way she was going to be wasting any of these privileges now.
After all, she was a bride who just couldn't wait to get married!!!
A little
piece of paper, written specially to be read
The world just
sees few ardent words, she sees his heart instead.






